Good morning my love. How are you today? I hope this letter finds you well and beautiful like you have always been. You did not reply my last two letters. It is fine. I understand what we are going through is a bit stressful and all. I pray you understand that I can not make this work by myself… I need you to hep Doris.
Your lawyer came to my office yesterday. She said you needed money for your up-keep! What was that all about? I am seated here hoping my ass off that our children are not sleeping hungry!
This is a letter I wrote to you a while back. I didn’t post it though because I couldn’t finish it for some reason. I still havent finished it. I thought you might like it. Here it goes. It’s in blue.
“I heard, that your settled down.
That you, found a girl and your married now.
I heard that your dreams came true.
Guess she gave you things, I didn’t give to you…” Someone like you by Adele
That is the song I have been listening for the past half an hour!
I woke up earlier than usual today so I could make it to Nyayo House on time to register for my new generation passport! I was there at 7:45am and 9th on the line when the doors opened!! I was happy because the day before I was 400th on the line and the man in front of me smelt like he had been in an oven full of shit!! I gave up thus the reason I was there that early!
My turn came up and I walked to the woman behind the ‘not bullet proof’ glass…
“good morning…” I said in a smile hoping she wouldn’t ask me for my ID!!
“Wapi ID!?” was her response to my greeting!!
“I lost it. But my abstract form and a copy of it is attached….” I say in a twang trying to look important!!
“hapana. Go see the Supervisor, office 15!!” she says and shouts NEXT!!!
There was still hope in my heart… Office 15 WAS EMPTY!!
I walk to a dark-skinned woman whose weave shouted “I AM THE SECRETARY”
“good morning, I am here to see the supervisor…” I ask in a respectful smile…
“KAMAU ALIEDAA?” she asks her secretary friend who was sitting a few meters away!! Her breath belonged at Nyayo House!!
“He went for a walk!!” The other idiot replies in utter arrogance!!
ITS 8 fuckin am… A WALK??!!
“who is asking?” The idiot adds looking at me!! I FELT LIKE STAPLING HER EYELIDS TOGETHER!!
“wait there’ the secretary says pointing at some bacteria ridden seats!! I sit!
My mother gave me a number to call in case I had any problems!! Mr. Mwangi!! Another useless one!!
I sit where I was told like a good citizen!!
A man in an oversized jacket and unpolished shoes announces…
“We are having an exercise and will not be serving the public until 2pm!” First is that how exercise is spelt??!!
I will leave now. I am going to meet this reporter woman who wants to do a story on my recent successes. She is beautiful and understanding and has helped me through this hard time. She thinks I am extremely funny. I am meeting her at some posh hotel for dinner and drinks this weekend. She said she has something to show me.
That last paragraph was a lie and was intended to make you feel jealous!! It’s only you in my heart… It’s only you I want to be with.
Yours for better and for worse.